out of town on business

so for the past week and half i have been out of town for work (still have another week before i go home). if any of you have ever had to go out of town for work, you know the fun of eating alone at restaurants and hanging out at your hotel alone in the evening (that's sarcasm if you didn't catch it). for those of you who know me, i hate eating alone at restaurants, it's one of those inner issues that just bugs me a lot. most of it's probably in my head, i think it's a mental complex, because i feel everyone notices that person eating alone. i guess it's because i am an extremely observant person and i notice the person eating alone. plus i have this stupid game i play in my head of giving each person a back story of my own creation. needless to say i have a creative imagination. since i play this mental game of creating a story for people, it gives me a complex thinking that other people do it too. which i highly doubt they do. so this week i have challenged myself to go out and eat alone and not let my internal "freak outs" win. so this week i have gone out 3 times to different restaurants. it's not been to bad. most of the time i have sat in the bar where you can watch the tv's and other people are eating alone as well. one evening i went out and sat at an actual table. the server approached and asked if i was eating alone, to which i replied, "yes, i'm in town for work" i have also had this need to let people know why i'm alone. again part of that internal struggle of doing things alone. so the waitress goes into her routine and so forth. the next time she comes over she says, "by the way, i think it's very sophisticated to eat alone. you never know you may lock eyes with some lucky lady who is also eating alone!" to which i replied, "ohh wouldn't that be nice." for those who know me, you are laughing because locking eyes with some lucky lady is not my idea of a great friday night, to put it in simple terms! but it was extremely nice of the server and she was an amazing waitress. for those of you who are wondering the only lucky lady i met that night was my server, she was lucky because i gave her a really big tip because she made my night much more enjoyable!

so the joys of conquering fears! it's been a fear conquering year for me. i picked up and moved across the country within 4 days in february, taking more risks in my personal life and putting myself out there, eating alone...it's my growth year i think! in the next few months i will be conquering my next fear. moving to a new town where i know no one. i relocated once this year and i will be doing it again in a few months. this time i will not know anyone. pray for me....i don't always deal well with change! have you guys conquered any fears lately?

on a side note, i have had a ton of time to listen to the radio on this trip, the 5 hour car ride here, driving back and fourth to my hotel everyday. every time i'm on the road, which is quite a bit this year because i'm traveling so much for work, i hear my favorite radio personality. her name is simply delilah! if you have never tuned into delilah i highly recommend you do. she has a nightly syndicated radio show of love and loss. callers call in and share stories of love, both current and past. on one particular segment a caller shared a story of her and her best gal friends and how much she missed them because they were spread across the country. this really struck home with me. my best "gal" friends are not all gals but none of them would mind me putting them into that category, so for all my best gal pals who i miss and love dearly across the country this one's for you...


"I come home in the morning light, my mother says when ya gonna live your life right, oh mother dear we're not the fortunate ones, and GIRLS JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN...OH GIRLS JUST WANT TO HAVE FUN!"